Here I am once again. I’ve had a long history with Tumblr. Met some really amazing people that became really great friends. I’ve poured my heart and soul out on here. But I’ve also found myself leaving and coming back. Leaving and coming back. Sometimes on spontaneous impulse. I honestly can’t tell you why. But here I am again. Guess I missed it. Maybe I have more to say. But I’m sure glad that Tumblr is still here for me. Life has been pretty good lately. I’ve had my ups and downs. I’ve felt alone at times too. I’ve been experiencing a surge of creativity as well lately. So many ideas coming to me and I’ve been filling up my notebook with projects and ideas I can’t wait to begin working on. At the same time I’ve been battling apathy and a lack of motivation to actually put some of these ideas into action. It’s an awful Catch-22. I’m currently “training” for my next marathon this November in Las Vegas. Been battling hard with that one as it gets harder and harder for me to find the motivation to lace up and get out the door for a run. On top of that my body aches constantly. I wake up in the mornings and my ankles hurt. My fucking ankles! I’m only 30, what the fuck gives? I started jotting down ideas and planning out my first screenplay. It’s about a couple who watch so many murder documentaries they are self-proclaimed crime scene experts and decide to go on a self-righteous murder spree using all the knowledge they’ve “learned”. Gonna be a lot of dark humor for sure. Been reading a bunch of scripts from some of my favorite movies to try and get some guidance, inspiration and ideas. At least I’ve been proactive about that.My album “Monsters Inside Me” turns 6 months old this Sunday. I released it earlier this year. That album took me 3 years to make, but some of the songs go back as far as 10 years. So it was truly a long time in the making. It’s not perfect and there are definitely things I could have done better, but it wasn’t meant to be pretty. It wasn’t meant to be perfect or polished. It’s about a gritty as can be. But it was such a surreal experience when I finally saw my music available on iTunes and Spotify. Felt like I was moving in the right direction.The music dealt with love, loss, happiness, sadness, and losing friends to addiction and suicide. I definitely poured my heart on those songs and nothing was held back. Writing those songs was definitely a cathartic experience for me. I’m still writing. I’ve got about 4 new songs in the works. Some missing lyrics, some missing other key parts. But I don’t want to force creativity for some arbitrary self-imposed deadline. I’ll let the parts and words come to me when they are ready. When the inspiration chooses to come knocking, I’ll be ready. Guess that’s all for now. I’m out of tea… #writing #Writer #san #diego #california #music #spotify #runner #marathon #fitness #thoughts #monsters #inside #me #weekend #friday #saturday #sunday
